In recent conversations with a friend, we ended our chat session with her saying, “not all of us end up as happy as you.” I had to ponder that for quite awhile and ask myself, what is it that makes me seem so happy to other people? Then I had to ask myself, is it a head-mind condition, or is it a heart condition?

I felt like I finally boiled it down to a heart condition. I think this is why. I reflected on why I am so happy and although I have my days when earthly causes will seem to make my spirit dip, I owe all my happiness to having a complete trust in the fact that God is in control. Not that he controls all of the events that are the fabric of my life, but he has brought me to a point in my walk with him, where I know that no matter what this earthly life deals me, I have complete trust that HE will see me through it.

Now, this doesn’t take out of the way the regular feelings all of us have when confronted with darkness, when confronted with temptation, when confronted with adversity and affliction. However, I found that I adopted an earthly attitude toward all of that a long time ago, and like a shiny piece of chromed metal would reflect light away from it, I reflect my troubles onto the feet of Christ at the cross. Yes, to put it bluntly, I just don’t worry about any diversity or troubles that come my way, because I know God will see me through it.

I have had so much adversity in my life, so many problems, and so much hell on earth, that I decided a long time ago, I just wasn’t going to let any of it bother me, for more than a couple of minutes at a time, when it happens. I am guilty of rehashing some events in the back of my mind, and even allowing my spirit to get all worked up about them a second and sometimes a third time, but when that happens, because I have programmed my mind over a long period of time to think like Jesus would think, I just say to myself, I bind you Satan in the name, and by the blood of Jesus, leave me alone! This, my dear friends, has worked for me extensively and continually, because there’s power in the name of Jesus Christ.

So, I have been able to feel happy in my heart because I am not weighed down with feelings of anxiety, oppression, depression, anger, worry, resentment, jealousy, sadness, insecurity, hatred, or any other negative feelings I haven’t named. Instead I feel at peace, calm, relaxed and confident that everything I encounter, and all adversity is just a ripple in the pool of life!

I need to add this last thing, the bible says to be instant in and out of prayer, and so I practice that at any time, and in any place, when I feel my feelings are overwhelming me, or my circumstances are not happening in a normal way, I will pray within my soul and spirit and talk to my heavenly father who hears and sees all!

I finally get this devotion from Oswald Chambers that sums up the way God has showed me to try to live each day....


Put God First in Trust. "Jesus did not commit Himself unto them ... for He knew what was in man."

John 2:24-25

Our Lord trusted no man; yet He was never suspicious, never bitter, never in despair about any man,

because He put God first in trust; He trusted absolutely in what God's grace could do for any man.

If I put my trust in human beings first, I will end in despairing of everyone;
I will become bitter, because I have insisted on man being what no man ever can be -

absolutely right. Never trust anything but the grace of God in yourself or in anyone else.

Put God's Needs First. "Lo, I come to do Thy will, O God." Hebrews 10:9

A man's obedience is to what he sees to be a need; Our Lord's obedience was to the will of His Father.

The cry to-day is - "We must get some work to do; the heathen are dying without God;

we must go and tell them of Him." We have to see first of all that God's needs
in us personally are being met. "Tarry ye until. . . ." The purpose of this College is to

get us rightly related to the needs of God. When God's needs in us have

been met, then He will open the way for us to realize His needs elsewhere.

Put God's Trust First. "And whoso receiveth one such little child in my name

receiveth Me." Matthew 18:5 God's trust is that He gives me Himself as a babe.

God expects my personal life to be a "Bethlehem." Am I allowing my natural life to
be slowly transfigured by the indwelling life of the Son of God? God's ultimate

purpose is that His Son might be manifested in my mortal flesh.


My hope for you is that you have had a prayer of salvation,
and if you haven't and you want to ask Christ into your heart and life,
then I offer these words for you to repeat,
but only if your heart is sincere,
because God knows it if you're not.

****                                          ******
Dear God,                                 I now know
I have needed                             you and have
rejected your calling,              so today, right now,
I ask Jesus Christ to come          into my heart and my life,
and forgive me from all past sin and Lord cleanse me from
my unrighteousness. I want you forever more to be my
guide and I want to follow you as a believer. I ask for
your strength to change my heart and my earthly
ways so that I can become a better child in
your kingdom. Show me how to depend
on you in all things. I thank you
and pray this prayer in
the name of Jesus
Christ, Amen!


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